On learning to forgive ourselves.............

For about three yrs. I have suffered with osteoarthritis in almost every joint in my body. Luckily I found an herbal formula which would keep the pain at managable levels but did not seem to cure the condition……indeed on days when I would run out of the herbal formula….I was in alot of pain…..and then I began to need to take more and more  of the herbal  formula to achieve the same result of “managable pain”…….A few weeks ago my husband was talking to me about how he had read that arthritis was about guilt……..and we were discussing this……It was a very dark and overcast day with heavy cloudcover but no rain…….I was sitting facing the outside window….my husband was facing me……..I said I do believe I carry essential guilt but no matter how hard I have tried and no matter what I have tried I canot seem to forgive myself for it”…..Is this o.k.with you ? he asked……..”Well no it is not what I want I answered……..but at this point it will take a higher power to lift this from me because I cannot do it myself…………At the moment I said this The sky which had been dark for two days lit up and suddenly there was a bright beam of sunlight coming in through the window and  filling the whole room with light….this was so unexpected that both our mouths dropped open and we sat speechless for what seemed like eternity…but must have only been seconds….simultaneously a hummingbird appeared at the window and hovered there looking in at me…….finally I whispered to my husband with tears running down my face…….This is a reality check…..do you see the beam of sunlight and the hummingbird? I see the beam of sunlight but I can only hear the whir of the hummingbirds wings he answered……….So I said outloud to the hummingbird “Thank you beautiful blessed messenger for the gifts you so generously bring and I so greatfully recieve………The hummingbird then  flew away…….the sky was again dark…….but I have had no sign of any arthritis since then…….The Course in Miracles teaches there is no order of difficulty in Miracles….. and that they are commonplace….. and guilt is the main cause of suffering…….guilt and choosing fear over Love.

Hello Friend,

THIS lesson - learning to forgive was the hardest thing for me grasp, but as Katherine above stated from ACIM, there is no order of difficulty in miracles.  The miracle is learning to forgive…and you my friend stated so clearly…we MUST first forgive ourselves…..”miracles are natural signs of forgiveness”

“Nothing real can be threatened, Nothing unreal exists… Herein lies the peace of God”  - ACIM

Love,
~A~