Cycle / I am

            It is hard to describe and many would say, ultimately futile to attempt so to do - the moment of Final Illumination, the turning of the key that finally unlocks the door of Illusion, but here I am forced to attempt it, so, gentle reader, I present my case: -

• Pleasing as an Aid to the Mind's digestion is the application of FORM and STRUCTURE to the essential FORMLESSNESS and STRUCTURE FREE reality, which we confront, vying for the cutting edge, and tremulously taking the ‘élan vital', the ESSENTIAL step to BEING.

(The truth is, that it is futile to try to shut out the world - many cultural traditions espouse the ideal of the hermit's path to self-enlightenment.)

            What road leads to this all embracing loneliness?  It is a journey.  But a journey that becomes the reality that it is.  The travellers on this journey are you, the world, time and space.  Where is the centre?  You, you are the centre.  I, I am the centre.  We, we are the centre.  Who am I? Who are you?

            We are the centres.  We are alone, together.  Together, alone.  You are in my thoughts sometimes.  Sometimes You are with me.  I am in my thoughts sometimes.  I am with me.  When I'm with me, sometimes I am kind to myself and sometimes I am hard on myself. 

And in enduring I learn to live.  For we are all learning to live, all the time.  Even when we're not learning, we're learning.  Even though we are not sleeping, we are sleeping.  Even though we are not awake, WE are awake.

We are unaware that we are aware...

The list is endless.

(The list is to port/starboard*)

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To come round endlessly to the point is the hellish walk round the Eternal Bend that is ego trying to control personal existence.

This is the kernel, the bit that is hard to swallow, and the unreachable centre that will not crack under any pressure, which will retain Integrity and Form.

Swallow the unswallowable.  Be brave, be warrior-like.  Be not afraid.  As a fellow traveller who travels that path.  I offer reassurance.  It is nothing to fear, for in the Stillness, Integrity stays with you, your reflection on and of the Form crystallizes and hence energises your Integral Self.

Your surrender is automatic, complete.  Your acceptance is Total, Abstract.

Piece by piece, the myriad parts of the Whole gel together, fuse, yet Awareness remains aloof.  Awareness treads the cautious path between inner Certainty and Outer Absorption.  Like a current, Awareness travels both hither and thither, tracing a discernable path, yet strangely growing (dissipating simultaneously).

Feed, feed.  Constantly.  Feed on growth, feed on the flow.  Learn to flow, learn to open.

Openness of heart leads to vulnerability.  Self-love protects the unprotected centre.  But there is more, much more to come.

Nothing will be left out.  For there will be nothing left.  Something exists because nothing doesn't.  The mind, language, communication, thoughts, ideas, images, emotions, physical ailments, pleasurable bodily sensations, and encounters - all these things play a part in connecting the self/you/me to the world.

                                                            Being

                                    Self                                           World

The eternal dichotomy /  duality

Being - Not Being

The penultimate dimension

.the dot

the centring,

reaching the hub.

The metaphysics:-

Beyond the physical,

Beyond the facts.

Above and behind,

Below and on each side

Ultimate dimension.

Beyond dimension and so confusing rationality.

I am.

I am trying hard to describe BEING.

I am succeeding / failing*

[delete as appropriate*]

I am satisfied.

I am.